I have a week left until the status quo changes. Yes, I can’t help but count it down.Up to this point, I have always feared, loathed, and resisted change.
For once, everything is on the table. Risk is paramount if this inner craving is ever going to be sated. The last decade, in retrospect, is truly an eye-opener. Truly.
To my surprise, I am beginning to forgive myself for sins of the past. I committed a crime, lied to those I love and was crushed by the guilt (a risky admission I know). Days ago, I was completely honest with a friend…and it reduced the weight. I guess it was good for me, good for my soul.
Anyway, I will be moving in the next month or so. In the meantime, I’ll have an opportunity to make reconciliations and open a few doors. I can’t say it doesn’t make me nervous, but I no longer carry fear.