“What we see depends mainly on what we look for.” – John Lubbock
I’m never satisfied with anything…not for long anyway. I am not sure why but it is something which persists within. I’m in my thirties and I need to know: what is the big picture?
For me, the question boggles the mind and the man. As I regularly wake up before the crack of dawn and go to a job I am slowly mastering, a feeling of discontent pulses.
I write because uncertainty reigns so I can only pray on it. Keeping my head down has served me well while earning me some praise; however, more duties have been lumped on my already heavy plate, in the past month. In all honesty, I’m not sure how far I want to go (with this occupation).
Politics and personal ambitions are also a major factor. The latter is something that has often been abstract while the former is nothing new but creates an undue tension. Work isn’t sucking the life out of me but it isn’t enough…
How do I sail through sea storms to reach uncharted waters?
Don’t get me wrong…I am in a good place yet there is so much more: to me and to life. The thinker that I am knows his bounds; the doer is foaming at the mouth, waiting to be fed. With that analogy, I bid you adieu…for the interim.
Bye for now, KS.